It was a cold night – a night probably too cold to be doing this. Grace wrapped her shawl closer around her face, an attempt to keep the harsh wind from stinging her cheeks. She could hear the hum of the weekend crowd down in the streets, a stark disparity to the stillness in her heart.
She closed her eyes and released a shaky breath. She was so, so tired. She wished there was someone to hold her hand right now, and tell her that everything is going to be fine. But she knew there will be no one, and that things won’t be fine. She’d tried so hard – but all her efforts have been futile.
She knew exactly what Jun would tell her if he knew what she was thinking right now. But Jun was no longer here.
Funny how life works. Last month this time, her life had been perfect. And now, she felt like an animal being forced into a corner. There’s nowhere else to run.
It never occurred to her that she will ever take this path. To her, suicide was a coward’s choice. If you have the courage to die, surely you have the courage to live. But she has had enough of living. There was nothing else worth living for. There was too much bitterness in her heart, and it was eating her up. She wants this all to end.
She dropped her shawl on the floor. Gingerly, she peeled her cell phone from her jeans pocket and sat it beside her shawl. Then her watch and finally her Cartier bracelet. When she was done, she managed a humorless laugh. All these redundant gestures. Would all this matter when she ended up in a bloody pile down on the streets below? What the hell exactly was she doing? The irony of it was laughable.
Clutching the necklace that was sitting on her chest, she took a step forward, slipping out of her shoes as she did. The concrete was cold beneath her bare feet, a stinging reminder that she won’t be feeling any more of this in the next minute. The street below blurred for a moment as she struggled to maintain her balance on the narrow ledge.
This was more difficult than she had imagined. She tightened her grasp around her necklace and willed her racing heart to slow down.
Just one more step, and it’ll be over.
Closing her eyes, she leaned forward…
